Is it required that musicians be melancholy regularly? Is that what this is?

What would make me really happy right now:


1. If all the people I cared about suddenly realized how cool they are and started having as much faith in themselves as I have in them.


2. Having a job that didn't send me to fucking Cleveland. Or make my soul ooze out my ears and hide in a corner.


3. Trusting someone worth trusting with things worth trusting someone with. Follow that?


4. Being safe. It would be nice to try that on, just for a little while.


Meanwhile, over here in my life, we're getting restless again. Apparently I don't have something I need, and in the words of John Mayer, I don't know what it is at all.